Vacant Mind

1 Day to go November 27th, 2005

It’s not long before I leave, I am a little excited, but more nervous.
I think that this is because I still involving my self in the organisation process that is happening particularly with getting my pack ready and making sure that I don’t forget anything.
Once I hit the airport and I can’t don’t want to turn back the excitement will really kick in.
I suppose that being out of my comfort zone can be nerve wrecking sometimes.

It was actually a really good excuse to see some people that I haven’t seen in a while, which for me is really nice.
I really like these friends, it’s just that i can never think of a good enough excuse to see them more often.
This makes it kinda hard, I know that the obvious solution is just to call them up and ask them out for a catch up, but when you think that the other side doesn’t want to for various reason it makes it a little more difficult.
Then you get to thinking that…well if they haven’t bothered to contact you in this long, even though you have made numerous attempts will they miss you if you leave without saying anything. Truth be told, no they wouldn’t…it may sound cynical but it’s true, because I’ve tried it out, purposefully.
That said it was really actually quite good to see friends again, but I was a little disappointed that I didn’t get to see a few people, which again brings us back to the previous statement.

So why did I catch up with them? Mainly because I’m an a sucker and I actually like these people.
I’m never any good at relationships, I never seem to understand where I stand, and when I think I do, I am often blatantly proven wrong. Which in hindsight is rather funny, not laughable funny though.

My room is a complete wreck and will probably stay that way until i return.
I’m certain that I’m going to forget something, which is the reason that I’m here writing this message.

Well this is going to be my last message from Melbourne, tomorrow I will be on a plane and hopfully my next entry will be from overseas!

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