The general perception that big public financial institutions are evil because they steal money from the public and finance unethical practices isn’t far wrong. In the past they have always gone where the money is, which has often meant funding projects or companies that provided profit without consideration of the impact of the other person down the line.

But how do you justify your position within this organisation without the expense of your soul? I don’t know yet, I haven’t found out how to do it.

But what I have noticed that they are (the big companies) are starting to notice (finally!) what the public are thinking of them. To the extent that they are starting marketing campaigns against the perception. Case in point the Commonwealth Bank ad on T.V promoting the “different” side of the bank while at the same time rising interest rates.

The move into ethical investing my many fund managers (even though some don’t exist – opes prime)

It is nice to be able to say in an interview that the reason I was attracted to your company was the importance placed on social responsibility, so the tide is changing, but as with everything it changes slowly.

I suppose what makes the days that much longer is the travel to and from the city 1 hour is a lot of time to spend being unproductive or doing something that you don’t want to do. I tried reading a novel and that worked quite well because it was a story that I was really into. Since that worked I thought that I would read stuff that I could learn from like a philosophy book or something about the stockmarket, for some reason it made me go to sleep more than anything else.

I have a routine that I enjoy at the moment that seems to be working except for one thing the early nights. I get up at 5.30am (early I know) and I hit the gym for an hour, get on the train at 7am and then I’m at work at 8am (if the trains are on time). But like I said the sleeping on time is the biggest problem I am unable to get to bed on time not because I can’t sleep but because I don’t want to. There are too many things that I want to do, blogging being one of them, learning about active directory and learning photoshop and photography in general.

The time after work is what I miss the most, that 6 hours that I used to have has been whittled down to 3 hours, 1 of which is spent getting ready for the next day (packing, preparing food, reading work etc…). Time with my family has gone, time with the girlfriend is less but the most precious of all is time with myself that I don’t have anymore.

I guess that it is one of the downsides of life, I can’t have everything my way.

Please be patient while I express a little bit of arrogance.
I firmly believe that they didn’t recoognise what they had in me, I wasn’t challenged enough and now that I go through all my acomphisments I realised how much I can achieve when I love what I do, and I love what I do.

I have been very fortunate in my working life I haven’t had a job that didn’t hate, I have been able to go through normal retail jobs until I found something more career focused. I think that part of my success has been due to my personality, normally I can get along with everyone and don’t tend to make many enemies. I didn’t realise my social skills within work until recently about the same time that I realised how important social skills where to keeping and advancing in your job.

It is something that I am now wanting to study a little more, I hope to better understand motivations and how this can affect your job. Understandably the work that you do counts as well, it shows that you can do what you were employed to do.

I have a few friends who can enlighten me on this and I’ll get back to you on what I find out.

It brings me to wonder if going for a graduate position is the best option, but I suppose that it’s the point of it – the option is there. I knew from the beginning that I wasn’t too much of a chance but I thought that the opportunity is there and there is not reason to be half assed about it, so I haven’t been. I would probably be averaging 4 – 6 hours per application.

But saying that I’m no chance and not getting any acceptance emails/sms is a different story out of the 9 that I did last week I got 1…today.

I guess that reality hits harder that it sounds.

More updates later.

But the only thing that I do hate about my job is the fact that I am always waiting for computers, being an IT tech means being at the mercy of computing power. I always seem to get caught in the moment where the computer is doing something and I’m waiting, essentially looking like I’m doing nothing but really doing something.

Anything from installs to reboots can take time up which makes the job seem like it takes longer than it should and sometimes unjustifable because it did take so long even though you are working the whole time. A lot of the job is troubleshooting, when something goes wrong you have to know what to look for and testing takes time, for me it’s rather annoying because it feels like it should take less time but doesn’t. Searching for solutions to see if anyone else has had the same problem either finding the solution or not finding it.

Considering all this as far as downsides go it’s pretty minor, I wonder if other people have the same thoughts or situations?